Long day.

I got a job in RL.
I got online classes.
I have friends that are far too social for their own good that likes to force me into leaving my house too often to do things that I sometimes don't even feel like doing.
I have to take care of my dogs.
I have to spend time with my boyfriend.
I have to spend time with my friends in SL.
OH, and I am SICK. :(

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I guess, I don't feel like I have time to do anything for my shop because I am lazy and then I am busy when I'm not that lazy. But, despite that.. I did make a few items that will be released for my shop shortly and I am working on a new female skin and I SUPPOSE I will release those guy skins tomorrow even though there is only a few because I lost the PSD's ages ago.

Hum-bug.

I'm not good at this SL - Store owning/making/designing type thing.

- I'm not responsible.
- I ditch idea's quickly.
- I am never satisfied with my stuff.
- I can't stand commitment because it'll pressure me to bail.


I was suppose to be apart of a friends project and I just feel like I am going to kill myself with the anxiety and like suffer to death because I feel trapped and I feel like I am going to let down people.

FIRST OFF - my stuff isn't that great. It's okay, it's maybe even good, but I am nowhere good enough to be apart of some huge project that is suppose to have AMAZING stuff. So, call me negective but I don't care. I don't want to embarrass myself and try and fail and have people secretly talk shit and have to go by someone elses designed building that isn't [ ME ] at all.

AND IF I SAY ANYTHING LIKE, " Oh, maybe blah blah blah blah ' . It should look different or be alot smaller or not so many windows or so plain. " I get made out like a bad person and like I am discrediting their work. I'm not! It's just not ME, I, VYLORNA DEMAR, ANTOINETTE (cantsaymylastnamePSYCHO's) .. sighsighsigh. I get too worked up, I suppose.

Updates and mah 11th ann.

The hunt is offically over.

I hope everybody enjoyed it.. I know it seemed kinda of cop outish to throw a hunt because others are doing it but I figured it was a good idea to be generous and because I haven't had a discount type ordeal thing yet which I will soon enough after I release some more things so that there is even more variety.

I'm trying to catch my stores inventory back up after I got rid of all the old stuff I made back in the day and deleted. RIP to that crap! :p

OKAY, so! GUYS, FELLOWS, SEN-YOURS.
I made some stuff for you guys this time!

- two different types of v-necks.
MULTIPLE AND MANY COLORS.


AND GIRLS, in the first pic - it's the YUMMY Shirts! well one of em. :]] its pretty new, like uh.. 4 days old? or so. idk made it friday. D: .. SO, YUH. -

whooa. my last post was sad. i was so angry and sad that day that i rewrote it 100 times trying to not sound too upset or angry or KILLERish cause i wanna stab his dad. >;[ .. <3CHASE.






OH and today is Krez and I's 11month ann and i spent probably like 5K on his avatar. yuh, im a GREAT sl gf and bestfriend. MOSTLY bff. :]]] ilHIM. - yuppp. \\ but sadly, he cant be on and didnt even see what i got him yet! cause i got his password ( No. I dont STEAL his nonexistant money or idenity. >:{ ) and i went on his name and bought him LOADS of stuff. :]]] and wrote a cuuute notecard letting him know how great he is and he missed it! =[[[. SIGHSIGHSIGH.

Emotionally startled.

David Chase Chancellor.
Died at age [ Seventeen. ] - a month away from his 18th birthday.
Reasoning: His father shot him and let him suffer for 3 hours before his death.

I miss you so much. It's been a year, now, and I can't stop crying because it's so unreal that you are actually gone and it's been so long.. I keep imagining you coming up to my door and knocking on it with a cheesy grin plastered on your face and screaming that it was all a joke and you were just gone for a year to get away from all of the drama that went on. But, your face in the casket is still in my mind and I know that it's real and you are never coming back. I love you, we all do, and we still keep you in our memory every single day.

Veezy Fashion Show!

yiiikesz.! - freshh board shorts, MR.MALES. [ i actually had something else in mind but since i got this fashion show tommorrow, BEACH STYLE, - yuh bitches! - i made some male shorts. ]

OH, RIGHT!

Nex-Core is presenting Veezy.
Thursday, July 3rd, 08. 1:30 SLT.
Celebrating the 5th birthday of SL. [ wooo. go SL!!! ]

Hope you can make it! :3 .. ! <333. ;]

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OH, OH, OH. i say oh alot.
i wanna blog some.
.. UHUM. .. :| .. UHHH, .. ily?!?! N i love KREZ. :D [ whom is my secret manager. give all yo money to him causeee he is ma armcandy who needs to be stylish 100% of the time. :D ]

other thennn that. no new news. o__o; .. new news. LAWLS. OH, and keep the drama out of yo life! DRAMA FREEEEEEE BITCHEZZZZ. or at least as low as possible. im pretty drama free N lovin' it. only shizzz i gotta worry about is mah friends WHOM NEEDS TO RELAXXXX.

- V. Demar.

RANTRANT.

I don't like feeling emotionally unbalanced or unstable, trapped in some endless cycle of a emo kids diary, repeating the same sad story every other day. I was talking to Ellie Celt, owner of Eat Rice, the other night with a group of friends and we were discussing how she was a Buddhist.

I'm a Catholic. I do believe in my faith, but I am not ultra religious and would want to press my views on to anyone else or tell them they are condemned for not believing my faith. Every person has the right to choose whether or not they believe in something or nothing at all, and I am not God, that is to say, if you believe there is one, to cast judgment on others.

But, excuse the little rant, back to the point! .. She is a Buddhist and it's funny because, my grade school best friend, or one of them, was a Buddhist too and if there was any religion/lifestyle that I would want to take up besides my own, it would be that but I am pretty sure that I am too angry for it. I mean, I am really inlove with the way they think and their lifestyle is based on but I still do believe in " God. " but, also think that we are reborn again after death as well?

I wonder if there is any way that I can get into anger management and learn to let go of all hurt and things that gets me upset or bothered and be more relaxed and forgiving like them. Well, the right type of forgiveness - not just the moving on but holding that grudge in my head about the future and hold that on the person for a long time or even, everlasting.

- Le sigh, MY THOUGHTS. oo; ..

Ja Ne.

new, new, new, new. .. - i wish, i could be all proper and be all like.. " This, good sir's of SL, is the latest teeshirts from Veezy. Double layers and fantastic graphic's to your liking! " .. buuut, thats too boring n i jusss dun feel like bein' another BORING ASS designer on sl, who is farrrr too stuck uppp. >;\\\\\!

I LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I AM.
WHY BE FAKE TO MY CUSTOMERS?!

jerk designers. ):